When the Lord gave me the title for this writing, I did not understand it. “Learning to love again? Interesting…now what could I possibly write to relate to this title?” In due time, I would receive illumination and understanding and then I knew that it was time to share some of My Story!
While most people find joy in reflecting on childhood memories, I realize there are others like myself who have tried desperately to bury the hurts of the past. Growing up, I had an absentee father, and a mother who although physically present–was emotionally absent. My mother suffered from depression and consumed alcohol as a form of medication and means of escaping reality. Sadly, most of her pain and frustration was projected towards me in the form of verbal and at times even physical abuse.
For years and even until recently, I found myself entrapped by the wounds of my past. Small things would trigger a memory and instantly I would find myself in tears and desiring to flee to an area of solitude. With each occurrence, I would re-live the pain, abuse, rejection, and hurt. Soon, I found myself overwhelmed with bitterness. But God was tugging at my heart, teaching me it was time to let go and forgive. He told me there was purpose in my pain; and He has began to teach me how to love again and even feel compassion for those who have caused me much pain.
Unhealed pain results in anger, hatred and bitterness. And sadly, many people today unknowingly are suffering from unhealed wounds of the past. The fact of the matter is, that if you still feel deep pain or strong emotions when reminded of the offense or offender, or when triggered–then perhaps there may be internal wounds buried deeply inside of you which have not yet healed.
As I reflect on my own wounds of the past and even recent disappointments and offenses, I realize that hurting people-hurt other people, broken people–break other people and wounded people-wound others. We must realize who is truly up against us–and that person is the enemy of our soul!
“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places” Ephesians 6:12.
As God has plans to prosper us, the enemy also has an agenda–to try and hinder God’s plan. But when we grasp onto the understanding of who is truly behind the wrongs and injustices committed against us or those we love, we then are able to feel compassion for those allowing themselves to be used by the enemy. And so we must pray for our enemies, and for those who hurt us. We may be the person God is calling to lead our offender into eternal salvation. There is always purpose in pain and suffering; for we gain favor from the Lord when we respond correctly.
And so, “It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees” Psalm 119:71.
Be blessed and remember,
❤️~Love Always Wins~ ❤️